When God Ran

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Introduced to a wonderful song by one of my friends... Touching song which speaks of God's wonder fatherly love and kind of reminds me how His love for me... By the way, have added this song to my "radio blog" on the right.

By zepher

When God Ran
Benny Hester

Almighty God,
The Great I Am
Immoveable Rock,
Omnipotent powerful

Awesome Lord,
Victorious Warrior
Commanding King of Kings
Mighty Conquerer,

And the only time,
the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when

He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"

It caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left Home,
I knew I'd broken His heart
I wondered if
Things could ever be the same,

Then one night,
I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road, ahead I could see
It's the only time,
the only time I ever saw Him run

Was when He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"

It caught me by surprise, He brought me to my knees
When God ran
I saw Him run to me
And then I ran to Him

Instrumental Bridge

Holy God, Righteous One
Who turned my way
Now I know, He's been waiting
For this day

{Repeat Chorus}

And then He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
I felt His love for me again

{Repeat Chorus}

He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said Son, He said Son, My Son!
Do you know I still love you
oohhh...He ran to me
When God ran

Envy Me, Envy You?

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Saw this video on tomorrow.sg... meaningful. Important life lessons (wah, so serious):

Hungry "Don't-Provoke-Me" Hippo

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"Not-That-Bad" In-Camp Training
Things are not that bad after all... before I know it, a week of my In-Camp Training is almost over.

At least, I am doing something meaningful now; been looking through some survey on morale and collating some data for my branch. Must say this exercise not only kept me busy meaningfully for the past few days, I have also gain much insight from the survey since I work with volunteers and to retain volunteers, motivation and morale are important things that I need to pay attention to.

Funny brand tissue... Useful for those "tearful laughters"

In fact, I kinda like my role; reading through all their responses, trying to understand what they are going through and helping to represent them through what I am doing... finding trends of demotivating factors, hopefully something positive will result from it.

In addition, I also managed to enhance their excel template that they use to compile the data and there is just this sense of achievement :)

But if I would still prefer my volunteer coordination work... stressful but challenging. More importantly, I like the working environment and the people in it. Kind of miss my colleagues now.

Bottomless Pit
Realized I have turned into a bottomless pit.... eating and eating and eating... Not only have I not been exercising since I started my In-Camp (how to when I struggle to wake up earlier every morning?), I also found myself having tea breaks. In fact, I will get very hungry in the evening despite having taken dinner and just today, I bought lots of bread and gobbled them up in matter of minutes. Oh no! I have turned into a hungry hippo!

Source: http://myblogispoop.blogspot.com/2004/07/how-i-know-im-warped.html

Must Learn to Say "No"
Sometimes, I can't help but feel that it is pointless being nice because people just take you for granted.

Take for example my ex-workplace; I left the place because I just felt all the effort I have put in and things I have done are just not appreciated at all. Now that I have left, they kept calling me to help out with parts of their operations, but now in the capacity of a volunteer.

I am quite OK with it actually since I am doing something for my profession. Things however changed when I came to know that even the last 2 old staff remaining are also leaving. I just got so mad that things haven't seem to become better even after I left...

Increasingly, I just find myself being rather impatient and not as helpful whenever I received calls to help out (doesn't help that I am super busy during this period so trying hard to juggle everything). In fact, I am even contemplating not to even renew my professional membership because I just feel so disappointed. At the back of my mind, I keep hearing myself say "it is not worth it".

Just today, I have also received a call from this professor who I have worked with in my former workplace and whom I am working on a project with him now. The moment I picked up my call, there wasn't even an attempt to build rapport or ask how have things been etc, just straight to the point that "I need you to do this". Just feel so lousy, like I am being used as a tool.

I just do not want to be taken for granted and looks like I need to learn to say "no"

"Don't-Provoke-Me" Hippo
(by the way, my sis says the hippo look like me... what audacity!)

Dawn

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Took this picture with my handphone some time ago, in early morning but somehow forgot the upload it. Not of super resolution (old handphone la) but helps remind me that dawn signifies a brand new day; one which could be filled with hopes and possibilities.

This is the day...
This is the day...
That the Lord has made...
That the Lord has made...
We will rejoice...
We will rejoice...
and be glad in it
and be glad in it.

Some More Fav Worship Songs

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With All I Am
By Reuben Morgan

In to Your hands
I commit again
All i am
For You Lord

You hold my world in the palm of Your
Hands
And i am Yours
Forever

Jesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
You're the reason that i sing
With all i am

I'll walk with You
Wherever You go
Through tears and Joys
I'll trust in You

And i will live in all of Your ways
Your promises
Forever

Jesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
The reason that i sing
With all i am

I will worship
I will worship You(x2)

He Will Carry You

There is no problem too big, God cannot solve it.
There is no mountain too tall, He cannot move it.
There is no storm too dark, God cannot calm it.
There is no sorrow too deep, He cannot soothe it.

If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders,
I know my brother that He will carry you.
If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders,
I know my sister that He will carry you.

He said, 'Come unto me all who are weary, and I will give you rest."

And the Point is...?

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Two days into my In-Camp Training and already I am dreading to go back... :)

Blessing or Bane?
I know that many will say how blessed I am when they know that I don't need to "chiong sua" and go for military exercise or do physical training, just sit in aircon office and do office work. But little do they know that this could also be some sort of mental "torture" as well, especially when you are leading a fast-paced work life outside of NS and now am slowing down tremendously during NS, to the extent of sometimes having nothing much or nothing meaningful to do... maybe it is just a good time for me to slow down to prevent myself from burning out.

The Challenge Outside NS
Coming from a social service organization, where resources are limited, I would say that I am constantly challenged to critically think about the rationale behind everything I do. Since I have to do almost anything and everything necessary in my role, I can't afford to waste time and resources doing redundant things that serve no purpose at all. I have to also think "how things can be better?" so that I can constantly improve the way things are done.

Culture Shock
Serving my In-Camp in my current unit is indeed a culture shock; what upsetting me the most is how I am involved in doing things in ways that, in my opinion, are ineffective, inefficient and worst, sometimes meaningless.

But on one hand, while I find that many things could be done more effectively and efficiently, on the other hand, I struggle with the "NSmen mentality": "don't talk too much or be too efficient or else you will end up with more work". Just find that some of the work, including the ones I am doing, can be done in a more efficient way or even avoided, if careful thought has been given to the rationale and proper planning done.

So, it can be rather challenging sitting in a office that is so quiet (not much interaction between staff and no radio etc) doing something which not as meaningful. All these while, worrying about work that is piling up back at work, which means that life would be difficult again (as if it hasn't been difficult 2 weeks before when I was rushing to arrange for coverage of duty) since I will be slogging to clear my work for the next 2 weeks after I return to work.

Nevermind me, just airing my grouses :) I, of course, still know the importance of National Service and I will say I also learnt important things for my volunteer management programme:

• Importance of proper placements and deployments
  
• Value of work and motivation
• Importance of having a feedback mechanism to help make things better