de Fences Up!... Safe in a Crazy World

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Old picket fence by sxn

Last sunday's sermon was on combating burnout by ensuring that we have enough time for dinner (and relationship building) as well as sleep. Was introduced the concept of the biblical day planner and how we should spend about 12 hours a day working (e.g. 6am-6pm), 4 hours on relationship and recreation (6pm-10pm) and 8 hours of rest (10pm-6am). I remembering telling myself that I had been too burnt out because of an "imbalanced" day and that I needed to be back in balance... come on, my life was like only revolving around 2 things: work and rest, no wonder I always feel tired...

Anyway, I had been spending the last 2 evenings in the previous 2 days on recreation and relationship building... not an easy task to say "that's enough for work" and leave work to meet friends but anyway did it! I definitely didn't regret the decision as I had so much fun doing so.

Went to Gone Fishing again 2 days ago, this time with one of my JC classmate... that eveing was really well-spent as we had dinner in a quiet cafe tugged away from the rest of the world in a serene environment playing Corrinne May's song... we chatted and played with her digital camera. Just yesterday evening, I met up with another friend and his girlfriend and despite it being just a simple dinner and shopping at a supermarket, I have so much fun being amidst friends who I feel are genuine and can trust. Felt so much like back in school again, my friends even played "hide-and-seek" with me in the supermarket, always running away from me and hiding hahaha... now when was the last time you had fun and done that? After my bad experience, chronicled in the last entry, this really made me feel safe again. I just have to be very careful on my choice of friends.

Just this morning, I have decided to avoid contact with this friend who had dinner with me 2 evenings ago with my committee member. I and him were supposed to be "brothers" for another friend's wedding at the end of the year. I have decided to pull out of the "brothers" gang. It is just not worth it anymore. The gruesome find at Orchard MRT station yesterday of a woman's severed head and limbs reminds me that this is really a crazy world and there are people out that who are just cruel and dangerous to be with. I just need my sanity back and will withdraw...

Attended a staff meeting today at work. I know, I know, I mentioned that I will never want to be involved in the "wayang" meetings anymore right but somehow I was caught by surprise yesterday morning and did not know how to respond when my acting head asked me in for meeting. Anyway, sat in. Most of the time, I just kept quiet. Yet another colleague (the last profession staff after me) resigned yesterday and this is on-the-spot resignation. Throughout the meeting, she and my acting head were shouting to each another and poor me, sitting beside my colleague, my ears definitely suffered quite a bit from the deafening shouting... Anyway, I was told that I will be granted 2 week's off by the committee in appreciation of my work and my last day will be next Thursday. The rest of the day was just like frantically running about to hand over matters and clearing my tables etc... Felt so "drama", took a photocopying paper box and starting packing my things on the table, just like in the movies :D

Time to close the chapter and move on...