Towards the end of the Chapter

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I am sitting now at my now-empty table, listening to Emi Fujita's song as I type this blog. All the staff have left, leaving only me and my fellow admin colleague in the centre, waiting for another meeting. Up till this day, I still can't believe that I am leaving...

I remember the journey here to work this morning... it felt so surreal... was also listening to emi's song on the way here and so much memories came flooding back... today is the day I am closing this chapter of my life, hopefully to move on to something better. This had been such a bad experience so much so my friendship has been affected. Just 2 days ago, received a sms from the friend mentioned in the blog entry "de Fences Up!... Safe in a Crazy World". He mentioned that he is frankly beginning to hate me... I replied to say that it is good because things haven't been going well between us and we should move on. Just this morning I messaged him again to say that "hate me he should but do not harbour the hatred for long as I am not worth it. We should all move on..." I also thanked him for the wonderful memories and friendship he had given me. Just didn't want to leave this chapter in a bad note.

I really hope that when I leave this centre later, I won't tear... I have fought many a "battles" here and similarly, I have grown a lot here too.

Received a piece of good news 2 days ago too. Was approached by a christian social work organization to apply for a job that deals with volunteers and training. I know I did decide to leave this field and was kinda lost I asked God for guidance. In fact, when I received the call, I was so thrilled with the job because I can be closer to God while staying in the field. I can also do something which I am interested in, training, and if so decide to go back to social work, I can always apply for an internal transfer. I guess I will give this job a try despite saying I will leave the field.

Praying for strength...