Receiving Blessings After Blessings...

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Hahaha, today is a happy happy and blessed day...

Firstly, I got my confirmation bonus yesterday (yes, I am finally confirmed as a staff) and this happiness lasted till today. Today is also pay day and earlier in the morning, my friend messaged me to tell me that our progress package has been credited into our bank accounts already (3 days earlier than expected, 1 day after nominations day for elections). Finally, finance department called to tell me that my petty cash claim is processed and I can collect my claims... yoo hoo... I laughed my way to the bank (need to save up for my Hong Kong trip in June... burning out).

I was also to attend a meeting for a large scale event next year and I was supposed to be in-charge of media story coordination and publicity. Seriously, I had no experience whatsoever in working with media and didn't really know what we were going to discuss at the meeting tonight. But in the end, the meeting went well and both me and the other guy shared a lot of ideas... Thank God for a meeting went well.

Recently, I have also started to receive messages from that friend who "was starting to hate me", asking me how I was and stuff like that... Well, the matter seemed to have passed for sometime already and I just didn't feel as hurt as last year and so I responded. Today, I plucked up the courage to ask him for a drink in the evening (not knowing how awkward meeting up for the first time after so long might be). Unfortunately, he was not able to make it. Although I still couldn't forget that this is a friendship which has soured and impacted me quite a bit, I am still glad there seems to be pssibly sign of reconciliation.

Thank God and amen.

I Have a Confession...

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Hahaha, have a confession to make... remember I once had 霸王餐? Well, I did it again... this time, I took 霸王车 :)

Do not know why but ever since I came back from In-Camp Training, my work seems to be getting more and more overwhelming... OK, I can feel the griping coming...

I am just so tired nowadays; no matter how much rest I have had, it is just not enough... At any point in time, I can have some 20-30 things going through my mind. Counted my projects, I have some 20 volunteer projects on hand to handle in addition to many other individual volunteers to interview, meetings to attend and reports to compile and prepare, all while handling the endless stream of phone calls and emails coming in day after day, disrupting my flow of work again and again. It is just getting so tiring...

Which explains why I even boarded a bus today without even tapping my ezlink card; was deep in thought when I boarded... only realized when I tried to tap my ezlink card when I alighted... So ultra embarrassing!!

But if you ask me if I am happy at my work, I will say I am... Just yesterday, I met someone who is the head of a centre. He was kind of surprised that I left my previous workplace. He told me that his centre is expanding and he is looking for an executive to take charge of programmes and volunteers; asked me if I am keen and if so he will let the board know when he table the new position for consideration. Although it wasn't some top position but it always feels good to be "sought after" :)

But at the back of my mind, I was telling myself "Nope, I will not accept the offer la... am extremely happy where I am; am happy with the work (though stressful) and the people I work with". It is the little things that my colleagues do that really make me appreciate them. Just 2 days ago, I was preparing for a volunteer fair and had to photocopy and staple a few hundred copies of my application form and newsletter. Seeing everyone was busy, I just sat myself quietly in one corner stapling my papers. But soon my colleagues found out what I was doing and all "swamped" over to split the load... hahaha in the end I ended up with nothing to staple and just stood there to watch... Really nice people...

Although am happy but I still need a break, so today just applied leave for June and will be looking forward to going on a trip to unwind...

Your Are the One God of Wonders

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Yeah, 2 more favourite worship songs...

You Are The One
By Lincoln Brewster

You’re the One Who made the Heavens
You’re the One Who shaped the Earth
You’re the One Who formed my heart
Long before my birth
I believe You’ll always lead me
All my days have been ordained
All Your thoughts toward me are holy
Full of love and grace

CHORUS:
You are the One You are holy
You are the One You are worthy
You are the One
You are the One everlasting
You are the One I will worship
You are the One I will serve all my days
You are the One
You are the One everlasting
You are the One
Jesus You’re the One

God of Wonders
By Marc Byrd, Steve Hindalong

Lord of all creation.
Of water earth and sky.
The heavens are your tabernacle.
Glory to the Lord on high.

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy.
The universe declares your majesty
You are holy, holy.

Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
When I stumble in the darkness
I will call your name by night

Hallelujah, to the Lord of heaven and earth

Learning Prudence

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I have learnt a lot from my fellow colleagues and saw how everyone did their part to keep cost down in my organization. What impresses me a lot is how everyone I have worked with in this organization understands that we must keep beneficiaries in mind when drawing out from the fund for official expenditure...

For example, my colleagues will travel by the cheapest possible means to Malaysia for work even if it means waking up early to catch a budget flight to their destination or if they have to take coach and/or rail. Even some of the furniture which we are using are also donated...

Somehow, I caught on this culture, so much so that I found myself staying in Popular for a very long time last week, when I was buying stationery, scouting around for the most economical buy and maximizing the dollar. I just cannot live with the fact that every extra unnecessary dollar I spend is a dollar taken away from the care of beneficiaries... just didn't want to live with the guilt... dun understand how one can anyway. Nowadays, travel is also limited to bus unless really necessary e.g. carrying bulky items.

Again, I became quite annoyed with myself for being so uptight with people... I just find that whenever I am around people, I am just so uptight and fail to open up to them... There are just some people and colleagues who I cherish a lot and want to connect with them on a deeper level as friends but somehow, I am just not able to... this is so annoying...